In the last entry, I recounted how many women, who had the same type of energy, were all attracted to me and eventually, around 2012, it began to dawn on me that something wasn’t quite right there.
By that stage, I had become aware of whom I was in one of my past lives, and that I did indeed have a sister who I was married to. Mind you, I did not make any connections as yet to the past ladies who were energetically drawn to me.
All I was aware of was that logically, if I was who people said I was, then I had a wife and sister out there.
So foolishly… VERY foolishly, I sent out a soul call for her to come and find me.
It wasn’t too longer after, maybe two or three days, when suddenly I got an e-mail from this lady who lived in Canada asking me for help, claiming that her soul was in so much pain, and she wanted me to contact her.
I never refuse a call for help, but she insisted that I ring her up within an hour of responding to her.
The moment I connected to was when I knew she was part of my soul family. I wasn’t quite sure exactly who, but within a few hours, I was very certain she was my past life sister.
So, like a fool, I suggested it to her, and it was like a dam burst. She told me that it was me she has been feeling, and had been looking for me so she could stop the feelings.
She remembered events that I had only thought were part of my imagination and if I had any doubts about it not being her, her e-mail address gave it away, as it described the exact thing she was associated with.
She told me: I shall let you choose your path. And I will never try to influence you. I think this affected me a lot more than it did to you
You forgot one thing that I was your wife and your decisions affected me. You decided to do things without thinking about me. I wish you would think how I would feel. But I don’t know why that meant we were not together. I still can’t accept it.
She was also strongly pushing me to go over and be with her. I knew, though, this would be a very bad idea.
If I had thought that other avatars were hard to resist, she left them for dead. She had the looks, energy, intelligence and power, but I also knew she would not be good for me. If I dropped everything and ran off to be with her, it wouldn’t be too long before things went pear shaped, and I would regret it.
I told her that I couldn’t give her what she wanted, and she was not happy.
I didn’t hear too much from her after that and I felt something shift from her energies, as though the spirit had left.
She cut off everyone associated with me and moved on. And so did I.
So, I asked my guide about what was really going on here. The response was that over the course of my lifetime, she had been obsessed with me, but at the same time seeking revenge for being jilted, and had been using her avatars to connect to me whenever there was an opportunity to.
The thing I discovered was that she was pretty much everything I wasn’t. One of my friends noted she was pretty much the opposite of who I was, and what I did.
I realised that she would have been unhealthy for me on many level, including her obsessiveness and that fact that we both had completely different outlooks and ways of doing things.
She would not have allowed me to even talk to others, let alone work with them and help them.
There’s a lot more I could say about this particular case, but I’d rather not.
The point I’m trying to illustrate here is that your twin soul does not automatically mean a healthy relationship. There’s a reason why we don’t both incarnate at the same time.
I do not know if this is the last I’ll hear from her but personally, I feel that there is no gain for me to be with her in this life time.
- Soul mates – Twin souls or the other half of me (areyouanempath.com)