Depression Series: – Exhaustion or I’m too tired to read this right now.


Many depressed people have more than just depression going on with them. They also suffer from exhaustion.

I’m not talking about the kind of gosh-I’ve-been-up-all-night-and-I-really-need-to-get-some-rest type of exhaustion, I’m taking about long term, utter weariness, where everything is a struggle and just getting up and facing a new day is a challenge that is almost insurmountable.

This weariness saps our strength, our internal fortitude, and our resolve to get a move on. Worse, it adds to the depression because it means when we have to deal with things, we don’t have the energy to do so.

Exhaustion is that will make you collapse on in on yourself.

It also triggers the self-recrimination, victim process, and you become very hard, and self-depreciating. You may well blame yourself for all the things you can’t do because you’re tired, and feel that you need to go to extremes in your behavior to change things.

All the while, you know, in the very back of your mind, that you’re in a victim / poor me cycle, and you’re hoping others will notice your extreme behavior and understand that you are pushed way past your limits, and probably can’t take much more before you implode.

This is a very, very serious state to be in, and rest and renewing energies are what is needed. Unfortunately, for some, even proper sleep is a luxury rather than something that just happens.

Those with sleep disorders will be quite prone to this type of depression.

Depression is a drain on the soul, and that leads to the exhaustion people feel.

Exhaustion leads to greater depression, which in turn causes even more drain on the soul.

You can see it’s a vicious circle and one that is very hard to break out of because many other emotions tend to kick in extreme, almost undefinable levels, such as guilt, terror, panic, and the feeling of being a victim.

We are so screwed up as a society that we would rather people repress their emotions and not bother anyone than seek to heal the causes that produce such things.

This has to change.

This will change.

Even if we do it one person at a time.

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11 thoughts on “Depression Series: – Exhaustion or I’m too tired to read this right now.

  1. Hi,
    I’m new to this and I added this post to my first blog. It expressed similar things to what I’m trying to say and also to what I’m feeling. The only thing is that I’m lucky to have people who want to listen – it’s just so difficult sometimes, especially when you get asked to explain every emotion. Reliving it can be so.. tiring or to reuse your word, exhausting.
    Thanks, and I hope you don’t mind.

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  3. Gary, this is amazing. i have linked up this post to my own blog and i hope you are ok with it. u expressed exactly what i have been feeling and i really wish that things will be better. thanks for visiting! 🙂 Take care.

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  5. Sometimes I feel like insomnia too, cannot sleep even I tried to close my eyes and stop thinking or worrying something.. But still it is hard to sleep soon 😦
    I found your article si interesting, keep posting buddy!

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  6. I don’t know about depression, but I have started to suffer from insomnia in the last few years. I never imagined that I couldn’t go to sleep, but here it is and I do not enjoy it.

    I don’t know if it is a psychic symptom, or if I am having spirits keeping me awake, but I am soooooo exhausted right now and I bet you I stay awake until 1am. It was 4:30am on Sunday and 3am last night when I finally was able to drift off. Needless to say, I am zombified! Sleep deprivation and/or exhaustion mess with your head and your health and its effects are not good!

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    • No, they are not, especially for empathic people who become more vulnerable because of it.

      Do you know what is keeping you awake? Can’t shut your mind off or too much energy?

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